Lowkey Chaotic

This is a conversation about how, during sex, women often perform pleasure, comfort, and emotional regulation, while men perform control, composure, and stamina - roles shaped by culture, language, and expectation.
We talk about performance vs presence, the aggressive language we use to describe sex, emotional labor during intimacy, and the feeling of being an experience instead of sharing one.

I didn’t stay because I was stupid. I stayed because the pain and relief cycle is addictive. A raw conversation about abuse, self-abandonment, and choosing someone else over yourself again and again.

I feel rejected all the time. Not just when the guy i caught feelings for ends things. Also when someone texts me with a dry tone. Or doesn’t reply. And it feels embarrassing to have such big feelings about such small things. So let’s unpack rejection.

As women, we’re constantly monitoring ourselves: on dates, in relationships, and in bed. This episode explores self-surveillance in dating and sex, why transactional intimacy can feel safer than romance, and why even with safe, respectful partners, being fully present can still feel impossible.

A deeply personal and cultural deep dive into why women are taught to believe they love too much and why that was never true. From heartbreak and sensitivity to situationships, ghosting, and emotional detachment, this episode is about reclaiming your heart, trusting your instincts, and remembering that you were never broken. You were just loving in a world that taught men to love too little.